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yea.
i guess i totally messed it up.
our friendship and all that we had.
i really wish this will stop.
this cold war that is going on between us.
there's a lot of times,
when i saw you..
i really just wanted to go up to you..
and tell you all my feelings.
but i dont know why..
it was so difficult for me to do so.
i guess its an ego thing.
when you apologized to me in msn.
i really wanted to tell you im sorry too.
but i just wasnt ready at that time.
i just hope this will end.
cause its making me really tired.
sometimes,
when i read the old posts of my blog..
i just felt.
how silly i was..
of being angry with a friend i used to care for.
right now,
i dont even know why i was angry in the first place.
i felt so stupid.
you may call me a drama queen
or whatever names you wanna call me
but i guess you dont know me well enough.
im always mad.
i dont even know myself well enough,
i guess im just one angry person.
we're both gonna graduate soon.
and i dont wanna make our friendship turn out so sour.
i want both of us to have good memories of oxford.
oh wells.
these are just my thoughts.
i hope you'll read this.
and if you still wanna hate me.
i guess i cant blame you.
it was me who mess this whole damn thing up.
alright..
imma stop here.
10:51 PM
